Enough to Love

I made this recently. Like a few days ago. I find that (in all girly honesty) I miss what once was more when I am on my period. Writing this helped me stay in reality. The reality is there is good and bad in everything. You dont have to accept the bad and at the same time you can miss the good. There are literally no rules to grief.

I literally write this but at the same time I judge myself and my ability to get over my own grief. It’s not easy. We all know things to be true but don’t accept it as our truth.

Anyways this is “enough to love” enjoy

Enough to Love- By me June 2025

Were you scared to say you loved me

So quickly just to be okay when you miss me?

Remember wearing a turtle neck

When i kissed before work

You said you had only been with me

And covered the mark i gave you

You will always have that turtle neck but the bruise is gone

Leaving me in the likes of a poem

Because I asked you to love me near a lake

The gnats in the air but filled with despair

Yes they mock me from the trees

Knowing that they lasted longer than you and me

Driving past your favorite places looking for signs of life

In a lovers quarrel but with no real moral

Cause I called you every week and your answer giving meaning to me

Checking the weather in the Carolina’s while your in a different state

Because i miss you is just too hard to say

Maybe we are both looking for torture to dress generational wounds

Now I find my absent father in you

Something’s are easy to disguise when you are covered in lies

But this time it doesn’t fly and you are always ready to say goodbye

I planned a date to pick flowers with you

stems in a milk jar where the sunflower would always droop

until it rest between empty food containers and snotty tissue

Accompanied by hair clippings and the gnats they mock me there too

I guess you only miss me when I miss you

I found your dating profile on a death scroll and it took a toll

I hope you find someone who isn’t like me

They will ask nothing of you so you can finally find peace

Half-ass another relationship but they wont mind

Two half’s make a whole and the love was never on time

Too bad you wasted your time on me

Pretending we were lovers must have been exhausting

I found your secret in a cookbook and you were gonna tell me you swear

I’m just too curious and too strong to care

Giving you all of me and more then you meet me half way

In front of your apartment door

But you were right, you never asked for more

To be fair you acted like you didn’t care

I said I accepted everything and I’m the one covered in lies

I guess ill try to find love again but it annoys me

That i have to dig the sunflower out of the trash and give it meaning

Because pretending we are lovers is without morals and meaning

Because i still love you with a broken heart

Because when it was torn apart it was with out meaning or moral

And ill know that its not my fault that my dad was not faithful

And you can prove to me that I am enough to love