Heiress

This post was inspired by song that I love by Florence + the Machine called Girls against God. This writing mimics Florence’s admiration for the mundane every day human existence. One of my favorite lines in her song is “It’s good to be alive/ Crying into cereal at midnight”. Something as simple as being able show emotion at any given point is a blessing in life and of being human. Humanity does not always feel good but it’s an honor to feel so fully. The ending hurts and the beginnings are scary but I’d rather be hurt and afraid over and over again than feel nothing.

Enjoy, this is Heiress

Heiress by me June 2025

What an honor it is

To feel things so beautifully and tragically

Dare to love just to lose and feel reused

It’s strange to love my broken parts

It exhausting trying to restart

Yet i never tire of this beating heart

Fierce love carried on my back

Years of dedication make my bones crack

I remain devoted

I lose another motive

Make a vision board in 2025

Just for a child to reduce it to “a vibe”

Nothing is ever on time for me

Moving states just to see

If I’m desirable in Florida

Finding a place that serves pho

Because it reminds me of a time

I was in a different state of mind

I envision the future to be better

And when fate calls you let her

In memories we were never engrained

I don’t need you to call myself brave

But humans rarely change on time

Not all behaviors are a crime

Posting updates on my finsta

The only place where i risked a

New identity because of rejection

Made easy with a small selection

But we were meant to remain hopeful

Even in the moments made to keep us doubtful

Because I’m in a science class

That we barely passed

Listening to a white guy tell me

How my people were meant to be

Sitting with my feminine edge

Toes hanging of the ledge

Thoughtless and easily embarrassed

They never gave power to the heiress

We’re your fool to believe you

You’re blessed we still receive you

Because in a year I’ll be healed

And an a year maybe you will feel

And maybe it will hurt too much

But then you’ll know true love.

Girls against God by Florence + the Machine

What a thing to admit

That when someone looks at me with real love

I don't like it very much

Kinda makes me feel like I'm being crushed

Is this something that you would like to discuss?

And it's good to be alive

Crying into cereal at midnight

If they ever let me out, I'm gonna really let it out

I listen to music from 2006 and feel kind of sick

But, oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with this

Remember being in that basement with Tom Vek?

Everyone treated us like little pets

Oh, tell me, it's not over yet

And, in my darkest fantasies, I am the picture of passivity

Waiting for you side of stage, suppressing all my private rage

But, as my sister said, I'd probably last six days

Oh, it's good to be alive

Crying into cereal at midnight

And if they ever let me out, I'm gonna really let it out

When I decided to wage Holy War

It looked very much like staring at my bedroom floor

But, oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with me

And I know I may not look like much

Just another screaming speck of dust

But, oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with us

But it's good to be alive

Crying into cereal at midnight

But, oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with us

Oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with us

Oh God, you're gonna get it

You'll be sorry that you messed with me

I met the Devil

You know, he gave me a choice

A golden heart or a golden voice